It has been 3 1/2 years since I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer and I still wonder why. Sometimes I still ask God why. Sometimes I get paralyzed in my fear of a recurrence. Most of the time I try to live my life looking forward instead of behind me, looking around me to lift other people up and encourage them that it will be OK, no matter the outcome. Sometimes it’s really hard. Sometimes it’s not so hard. Making the decision to apply for the Teal Diva Retreat was easy. I