As much as I hate you, I love you.
You have taught me so much, yet you've left me so ignorant.
I don't understand why I detected you so slowly, or how you spread so fast.
You steal, you kill
You bring life, you bring death
You give, you take
You commend, you degrade
Oh, but I am in love with you.
I am in love with everything about you.
I want to know you better, though I am afraid of you.
I am afraid of your thoughts, your presence, your speed, and you
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